Sometimes I look outside and realize then how hard it occurs to me, so separated from nature be. In a large city, far from my dreams and desires of the sea, wind and water. I notice that the spring, all moving, also moved me in and search. I remember how anxious I am and how much I am looking for a perspective.
It's so nice to see the first blooms again to see Thaw's life, first warm rays of the sun and without gloves to cycling. How strange it feels like I've seen it all before. On Friday, it is
to Oldenburg in the north, a good variety, and April will be very busy ...
I am still very much in kindergarten, the work is very rewarding and very tiring. Very intensive Work is paid very poorly. And I do not fit well into systems, even if they are as good as that of my employer. I work on the change of diet in kindergarten, so the children get better food, have given a presentation and surveys made, there will be a working group ... and it takes infinitely long, it is so frustrating. It's very nice to be with the children do, very tiring, that changes can be implemented so slowly and work in the background, at home, at the computer preparing presentations, surveys .... gives me great pleasure. A good combination, which seems very well known. And yet, I'm sitting at the computer too much, because I lack the natural way because It is a real effort, until I'm out here really, no water or sea or meadows in the area, just houses. In the long run I do not live like this, though, I have now, after all, will take my garden in attack, bulbs and bought me a flower bed will provide as soon as the weather gets warmer. The apartment is always nice, so far does the same, the toilet is now white brown on the tiles and not 70 years, a recovery!
I lack expression, creativity, dance udn life while I respect very much what I get here on routine, health, earth and clarity.
Cologne gives clarity, boundaries, definition, strength. My bike is really wonderful and although I'd like a car, it goes so very well, I just come out rather difficult.
to dance the whole winter I was too tired, I was far too late, but I've found good people and it feels as if I lay the new daylight saving time (since Sunday) over the winter. I'm so excited for the summer, although I still work a bit on my summer figure, since I'm not quite ;-)
At work I have to see how all the harmony's sake keep your mouth and it is no good will start and I have to even open their mouths, even if the umbequem and is and learn that it's no good harmony. I learn to my positions and I find it not easy especially since there is little support and I want to do positive. New. My wife
Kukwa it is still amazingly good and how do I go from here, so long as it still is. It would be difficult for me to have them here. And yet, how long? It is very rewarding to hear from you and to learn, 93 years of life appear much in a different light. I learn from their German history that my grandparents can not tell me and it feels more valuable, there are so few people present at the time. And so beautiful it is to bring her a curry paste that does not know and to be able to surprise them, seduce them with pumpkin seed oil, for her shopping, sew or talk to her about men. Each week, at least 2 hours, I Massier her head. We have a lot of talking time. The Old and the little ones, and I in the middle. I do not have a partner that I lack space, nature and Hawaii, I have no dreams and perspective.
I've done my duty, am curious if the log on and if everything is ok.
The carnival, the Cologne Carnival ... was actually quite nice! Women's Carnival, drinking, dancing whore, was not so mean that the moves but all the more, I really liked, so much love, work, passion and joy. I quite do not understand it, but I'm also not a woman from Cologne ;-) And, it is not a bad town to live. Just nice that it is not often. Lively, very well.
top when I'm with Bill Lantern Festival. 
